“No One Warns You About the Amount of Mourning in Growth” ~ Author Unknown
Change hurts like hell and growth is fucking uncomfortable. We often glorify ‘change’ and ‘growth’ with the majority of the focus on the end result, while we carelessly chalk the process up to mere ‘necessary struggle.’ As we’ve scaled thru the trenches and we made it on the other side. I dig it, but right now I’m in the thick of this ‘changing/growing’ phase. Therefore, the universe is sitting my ass down forcing me to do some serious internal reflection and some gut wrenching soul checking. The past few weeks I’ve experienced quite a bit of loss…in many forms. The losses have been consecutive. They’ve been sudden. They’ve been unexplainable. They’ve been uncontrollable. I wasn’t ready for them. I’m still not….
I spent many years at war with myself. My thoughts and my actions have contribute to many bad decisions. We hurt ourselves more than others. If something doesn’t seem right, it’s not. If there’s anything you have to question time & time again, let it go… Don’t be at war with yourself.
Becoming a better person shouldn’t involve just change, it should also involve growth. Healing means the damge never existed. It means the damage no longer control our lives.
A profound sketch of a woman giving her all to someone who has nothing to offer her back. The transfer of energy is real. If you’re constantly surrounded by, interacting with, having sex with, pouring your feelings into an empty person. They are going to suck you completely dry. Know your worth. Surrounded yourself with people places and things that don’t leave you spiritually empty on skin and bones…
This is the thing about love: a huge part of it is in the letting go. Allow people to be who they are and encourage them to do what makes them happy, even if what makes them happy doesn’t make you happy. Never tell someone what they cannot do for even when we are no longer single, we will always be singular individuals with our own free will. Never, ever try to disrupt that will. EVERYTHING ISN’T ABOUT YOU. True love is loving someone the way they need to loved and not the way you want to love them. Unconditional love has no bounds and no end. No matter what someone does or doesn’t do, continue to love them, especially when you know it’s time to move on.
You see, there are 6 kinds of love (Greek philosophy) and only one of them is romantic. Learn and practice other kinds of love and learn to love some people from afar. Learn to love and let go at the same time. And never be afraid. Relationships never end; they only change. When two souls connect, neither one will forget the other but that doesn’t mean that person deserves to hold the same position in your life forever. In love, there is no ownership; no one is ever yours. Everyone belongs to God. Be okay. Love others the way God loves you, no matter how much it hurts because we have hurt God and he still never stops loving us. Love with all your might and never let anyone strip that love from you. Honor God with an open, loving heart and when you are hurt, honor him more by allowing him to heal you in those broken places and to make those places strong. Don’t run from pain. It is pain that fortifies you and brings you closer to God.
So, walk into that darkroom and challenge yourself to love and to do so without condition and without seeing what’s ahead. Have faith that you will soon see love’s light and please know that God will never send you a worthy, loving partner until you yourself become a worthy, loving partner. Someone needed this today. I don’t know who it is but it was on my heart, now it’s on yours. I wish you all the best of life and love. Always.
I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days like to attack me at once.
I’ll be so happy when this life storm ends and the sun starts shining again. Lately, I’ve been getting hit with so many of life’s issues. Everything from my work life, personal life, and even my ability to be creative is suffering. I know in life there are unexpected journeys that we have to take and take we we have to weather all the storms that come with them. But when you began to feel like you are existing and not living. Some major changes need to be made quickly. So, what do you do? You think back on the hardest times and remind yourself that it’s a bad moment and not a bad life.
Accepting that life is insane, that bad things happen to good people and that you can find the courage to be grateful for the good in every situation and still move forward is hard (even terrifying), but heroic..
My Grandma Snookie made sure each one of her grandchildren knew about the power of prayer. Even when I reached adulthood she would always give me prayer books when I stopped by for a visit. I can always hear her voice telling me that a small prayer can change any situation. Check out the video for some inspiration.