“No One Warns You About the Amount of Mourning in Growth” ~ Author Unknown
Change hurts like hell and growth is fucking uncomfortable. We often glorify ‘change’ and ‘growth’ with the majority of the focus on the end result, while we carelessly chalk the process up to mere ‘necessary struggle.’ As we’ve scaled thru the trenches and we made it on the other side. I dig it, but right now I’m in the thick of this ‘changing/growing’ phase. Therefore, the universe is sitting my ass down forcing me to do some serious internal reflection and some gut wrenching soul checking. The past few weeks I’ve experienced quite a bit of loss…in many forms. The losses have been consecutive. They’ve been sudden. They’ve been unexplainable. They’ve been uncontrollable. I wasn’t ready for them. I’m still not….
I spent many years at war with myself. My thoughts and my actions have contribute to many bad decisions. We hurt ourselves more than others. If something doesn’t seem right, it’s not. If there’s anything you have to question time & time again, let it go… Don’t be at war with yourself.
Becoming a better person shouldn’t involve just change, it should also involve growth. Healing means the damge never existed. It means the damage no longer control our lives.
“Sometimes, I wake up at four in the morning and taste smoke in the back of my throat. I swear to god, you’re still burning somewhere deep inside me.”
Sometimes, you never really get over someone. You learn to live without them. It is what it is…….
A profound sketch of a woman giving her all to someone who has nothing to offer her back. The transfer of energy is real. If you’re constantly surrounded by, interacting with, having sex with, pouring your feelings into an empty person. They are going to suck you completely dry. Know your worth. Surrounded yourself with people places and things that don’t leave you spiritually empty on skin and bones…
The truth is…I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart…and I never really got it back.
Sometimes you can’t let go of the things that are making you sad
Because it’s the only thing that made you happy…
But, things can’t stay the same and at some point you have to move on…