And for my next trick…
Be aware of those who only love you when you’ve left and only give a fuck when you’re gone. Be on the lookout for those who thought you’d spend the rest of your life trying to get over them, damaged and unloveable after what they have done. Keep your eyes peeled for the people who wish loneliness and despair upon your life and those who do not applaud when you have dodged both. There are exes who will slither about your feet, hissing, reminiscing about the “good old days,” not realizing the both of you were in two different relationships. And there will be slithering exes who will only blame you for the bad days and only tell the world about your reaction and not the cause. How convenient.
And there are friends who aren’t really friends at all.
They don’t want to hear about your happiness, your triumph over bad relationships and dead end, one-sided love. They hate this happy, fully functioning you–this equally yoked, perfectly partnered you. I mean, how dare you not die! How dare you thrive without them! They will miss your sad stories and fail to find interest in your happy ones. But it won’t matter, because you are where you belong and there is no room for them anymore, anyway. They’re going to text you one day and Poof…I’m gone.
“Sometimes, I wake up at four in the morning and taste smoke in the back of my throat. I swear to god, you’re still burning somewhere deep inside me.”
Sometimes, you never really get over someone. You learn to live without them. It is what it is…….
A profound sketch of a woman giving her all to someone who has nothing to offer her back. The transfer of energy is real. If you’re constantly surrounded by, interacting with, having sex with, pouring your feelings into an empty person. They are going to suck you completely dry. Know your worth. Surrounded yourself with people places and things that don’t leave you spiritually empty on skin and bones…
This is the thing about love: a huge part of it is in the letting go. Allow people to be who they are and encourage them to do what makes them happy, even if what makes them happy doesn’t make you happy. Never tell someone what they cannot do for even when we are no longer single, we will always be singular individuals with our own free will. Never, ever try to disrupt that will. EVERYTHING ISN’T ABOUT YOU. True love is loving someone the way they need to loved and not the way you want to love them. Unconditional love has no bounds and no end. No matter what someone does or doesn’t do, continue to love them, especially when you know it’s time to move on.
You see, there are 6 kinds of love (Greek philosophy) and only one of them is romantic. Learn and practice other kinds of love and learn to love some people from afar. Learn to love and let go at the same time. And never be afraid. Relationships never end; they only change. When two souls connect, neither one will forget the other but that doesn’t mean that person deserves to hold the same position in your life forever. In love, there is no ownership; no one is ever yours. Everyone belongs to God. Be okay. Love others the way God loves you, no matter how much it hurts because we have hurt God and he still never stops loving us. Love with all your might and never let anyone strip that love from you. Honor God with an open, loving heart and when you are hurt, honor him more by allowing him to heal you in those broken places and to make those places strong. Don’t run from pain. It is pain that fortifies you and brings you closer to God.
So, walk into that darkroom and challenge yourself to love and to do so without condition and without seeing what’s ahead. Have faith that you will soon see love’s light and please know that God will never send you a worthy, loving partner until you yourself become a worthy, loving partner. Someone needed this today. I don’t know who it is but it was on my heart, now it’s on yours. I wish you all the best of life and love. Always.
I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days like to attack me at once.
I’ll be so happy when this life storm ends and the sun starts shining again. Lately, I’ve been getting hit with so many of life’s issues. Everything from my work life, personal life, and even my ability to be creative is suffering. I know in life there are unexpected journeys that we have to take and take we we have to weather all the storms that come with them. But when you began to feel like you are existing and not living. Some major changes need to be made quickly. So, what do you do? You think back on the hardest times and remind yourself that it’s a bad moment and not a bad life.
The truth is…I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart…and I never really got it back.